Non-existent, in water I float, in my solitude. I do not cry. These are the words that define me, Nandita. I live in a surrealistic world that I call Utopia. Today, my brother, Anshuman returns from the US of A. Anshu has been studying B. Tech and promises to be a multi millionaire. He is gifted with IQ, I with EQ. We are birds of a feather. There is pandemonium in the house. Ghar ka chiraag laut raha hai. Mom is going ballistic, screaming matches with the staff, Papa rushing around too. Their darling son, the prodigal is returning. In this mob like fury, I am totally forgotten. My breakfast comes in late, as cook is busy making Anshu’s favourite dishes. Kebabs, biryani, theplas. I am alone in my room. I stare at the curtains, wanting to tear them off. Mom has forgotten that today I had to go for my entrance test for the Jewelry Designing course at JD Instt. The driver has gone off to get fresh towels for Anshu’s room. I hurry. I am late already. I need to shower and catch a ...
For it was just another time that we met.... It was a momentous journey of carnal seeking ........With you and me..... Way back then, when you wrote to me, With a pen full of bloody ink on a Paper sullied with our love, dreams, sands and fire............ It was for me, only a letter of love But when you did write, A meaning unfolded vastly in front of me I saw unfolding in my visions' eye, Many, many life spans of time........ Where I am entwined in the arms of love, which I saw in you, Holding me as your very own, and when you did leave me After plunging into me ghoulish madness of love.......... I became this dark being, sullied by tainted love, Yet when we parted, we cried, we shed tears of rain, Of wet sands, of muds that we soiled ourselves in. So when I cry because the seed that you sowed Was not meant to be, Then a little something that i call faith, dies.... Because you care not for me You care for only a macabre seed...
It's a lonely path Where I do not see even leaves I walk, with not a soul besides me They all left me, in a misty time which was not joyful My angels, they rest and watch over me Allowing my solitary tears to just fall In a dreamy haze, I see Him A promise that is now never to be He smiles from far but does not come near He is in pain, yet cannot ever be mine He caresses my Soul, softly so I get a drift of a musty fragrance We swirl in endless dreams With only passion holding us senseless A void,a chasm, a wind adrift with time Making us captives, like birds trapped in gilded cages My tears fall, on a dusty rose bed Causing the tender buds to wilt I hang my head in sorrow Waiting for time to stand still In my dreams, I explore Worlds of passion Only to awaken To emptiness
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